Here it is 2022 and I'm pregnant for the second time, finally dragging myself back to therapy after so many years. The first session was deep. I completely broke down talking about everything I could remember going through as a child. Now, at 26 years old, I'm asking myself why I feel so alone, why I can't love anyone, why I am out of touch, why people I thought were my friends stopped speaking to me, and wondering what's really going on?
Look, I don't even know where to start. I guess I'll start from the first traumatizing experience I can remember. I was about four years old when me, my mom, and three of my older siblings were sharing a blanket on a cold winter night, sleeping on a stranger's porch with nowhere to go…Wow, just typing that out has me reliving that experience and brings me to tears. I am praying that by sharing my testimony, being vulnerable, and facing my experiences face to face, it touches someone to start healing their inner child. This is very challenging for me, but this is a part of my healing, and you have to start somewhere. I don't even know how we got to that porch or what happened the next day, but the memory of that night is still affecting my life today.
So let me tell y'all a little about myself. My name is Ke'Shara Cooke or I also go by KeeKee. I'm a 26 year old mother of two from a city named Shark City (Norfolk, VA). I'm the youngest of eight children, and I am also a twin. I grew up in foster care from the age of nine yrs old until I aged out at year 21. I'm a very misunderstood person, I love hard, I'm very caring and generous to the people I love. I am the type of person that would give a stranger my complete last. My sons, Kaidence and Kaison, are my biggest blessings from God. Kaidence is two years old, and he is the reason I am still alive today to tell my story. My fat papa Kaison is four months old, and being pregnant with him really made me want help and to heal from my past in order to be the best mother I could and give them my all. Therefore, I decided in order for me to do that I needed to face the past, conquer, defeat, and heal the baggage I carry from my experiences as that three to nine year old KeeKee.
